this is what is next

"If you are feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart where your hope lives. You'll find your way again." ~ Unknown

{stole this quote from Tara's cute bloggy}

i think my wipers are broken

i'm feeling a little blurred today.

everything has been pretty much chipper; i have amazing friends

i've met so many new people that help keep me busy

i'm doing everything i think i should be doing

work and school fill my days

and yet...

will i ever forget?

i realized it is much easier to forget about the things that i truly battle with everyday

then the night comes and my mind is flooded

i still can't grasp the whole idea yet, it still is not real

all those ridiculous songs are true

everywhere you go, everything you see, every mile is a memory

i cant complain

my halfsie is awesome and takes good care of me, even from that far away

i cant wait for the end of summer and a sweet road trip

but it's going to be okay.

while i may never have the 'same', i know i will have something great.

something real. something true.

and it will be enough.

finally getting to those books on the shelf

lately i've been renewing my love of curling up with a good book. 

and seeing as how i saw wicked on broadway like 5 years ago, 

i picked up the paper version 

{plus i heard the it is amazing and it goes so much more in depth than the actual broadway show}

needless to say, i'm excited.

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hopefully i'll have some time this weekend to start reading it...or maybe i'll save it for my possible upcoming cross country road trip....OoOooOo

i'm scared because there's only one of you

one by one my troubles float away.

day by day my heart is new again.

behind these open eyes i begin to see.

within me and around me i feel victory.

**

this life of mine continues to amaze me.

from what i have felt to what i feel now.

i've learned a lot.

i know some of what i want, and some of what i don't.

i can see different sides of the sphere.

i know that i will only be better from this.

but i just want to be better for someone.

{i feel good.}

photo via papertissue

i'm itching for a getaway.

song of the day

while all the vultures feed

{it's not as gruesome as it sounds, promise}

incubus

i went to the midnight showing of transformers 2.

i was kind of disappointed.

it is now 4:40 am.

dreamland is calling.

scrippys

this morning as i was reading in alma, i discovered a solution to a problem.

in alma chapter 28:

 PROBLEM -- verse 13 reads:

And thus we see how great the inequality 

of man is because of sin and transgression, 

and the power of the devil, which comes 

by the cunning plans which  he hath 

devised to ensnare the hearts of men.

SOLUTION -- verse 14 reads:

And thus we see the great call of diligence 

of men to labor in the vineyards of the Lord; 

and thus we see the great reason of sorrow, 

and also of rejoicing -- sorrow because of 

death and destruction among men, and

joy because of the light of Christ unto life.

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we will mess up.

we will fail.

the adversary will always tempt us.

but if we set our hearts upon exquisite and wonderful things, then we can always follow them.

it is up to us to choose how we will act and what we will do.

i choose to follow my heart.

i choose joy.

i choose light.

i choose Christ.

** 

yesterday,

i forgot for a little while.

and it did make things easier.

but i don't want to forget anymore.

different directions

 

Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous.

Love is never boastful, nor conceited, it is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offense and it is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins, but delights in the truth.

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.

**

have a lovely weekend

{photo via papertissue}

you're doing it on purpose.

and i don't appreciate it.

even though i have previously established the fact that i really don't like cats...

this is my silly smile for the day.

i don't know why this cracks me up so much

 i'll take anything these days i guess

wow.

less than 24 hours this time.

i don't know if you should keep your name 

or just start going by the comeback kid.

right?

sneak peek

saturday {actual b-day}

started off the day with a lovely {free breakfast} from joe's farm grill. yum.

**

then...

had a more than filling lunch at oregano's with my dad, grace and brittany

 {don't worry, the meal had no carbohydrates...ya right!!}

and of course, what better way to end a birthday than with a banana split from sugarbowl.

...more to come...

here comes another week to be grateful for.

today...

is my last day of being 20.

temple. lunch with friend. work.

**

i think instead of work i would like to float away with a bushel of balloons 

and enjoy the last day of my youth...

oh well, maybe next year.

happy weekend!!

{photo via paper tissue}

ch-ch-ch-check me out

i'm claiming bragging rights.

both of these would normally cost somewhere in the 100 dollar range.

between my new Steve Madden boots and Jessica Simpson slip-ons {which were 12.99},

i am more than satisfied.

**

normally i am not a brand snob...but when it comes to shoes, it makes a difference, i swear.

june-bug

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...

i can't help but think of the fact that my birthday is just around the corner...

june 13 {if you don't already know}

i figured i'd put together my wishlist, just in case...

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i wouldn't mind starting out the day with a batch of these beauties from Sprinkles.

the chocolate marshmallow ones are to die for...and red velvet too.

maybe while the sun sets i could run through a field of these.

then go for an evening cruise on this baby.

and wouldn't it be amazing if i ended the night with one of these?!

...the ice cream looks good too.